Thursday, July 12, 2012
Hi sweeties, today's post will be a bit different, so please bear with me. A correspondence at What I Wear emailed me recently about something very exciting (which will be for another time) and also asked me if I had any stories I wanted to share about fashion bullying against me or someone close to me. Well, it just so happens I have first-hand experience being bullied, and this opportunity came at a really great time, so I joined the campaign at once.
So let me tell you about a girl I will be calling in this post as Beth. She was my bestfriend once, and well, she made my highschool days something I would rather not remember, ever. Like any other girl out there, Beth had her own insecurities, but unlike other girls, she brought it out by displacing it, or in some cases lying about, other girls. I was almost always her target, and my time as her friend led to many hurtful insults on her part. I have been called piggish, fat, super ugly, weird dresser, etc. etc. I went on a crazy lettuce salad diet for a year because of her, and I never shared anything like my new purchases (which I always do with my current friends), family or personal matters with her, for fear of being ridiculed for it.
It got so bad that, a few years ago, I finally cut ties with her and resolved to ignore her for, well, the rest of my life. But recently, I found that my silence has led her to believe that I am bitter, and that I have become a laughing stock with her and her new 'friends', and also that I will have to see her in an alum party that will be hosted in our old highschool. It, of course, affected me. I hate that it affects me. So I stand here, on my blog, one of those places where I feel like myself, and do not have to fear ridicule.
This is not retribution against Beth, this is for me. I am letting go all the bad things she has ever said. I refuse to get affected anymore. I want to be truly over highschool.
And to Beth, wherever you are, I hope you're happy.
Hah, and that's it. That is a big ton finally off my shoulders. I really had to do this...I say no to bullying! Any kind of bullying. Normal posting will be back on after this, sweeties! To you loves who read it completely, thanks, to those who don't, I love you anyway :)
See you soon sweeties, say no to fashion/looks bullying too!